Wednesday, August 18, 2010

More about yesterday

Hi. You know me. You watch my vlogs. You read my blog. You follow me on twitter. I thought it would be fun. I said 'what the hell' and dove right in. Yesterdays topic was a tough one. Brought out a lot in everyone. I'm still reeling from it. There's much more I have to say. Here goes.

•I hate feeling excluded, even on the Internet.
•I know I can do better.
•I know there is a better version of myself that wants to come out. Why can't I let her?
•I want to be happy with myself.
•I've watched my mom go through gastric bypass surgery and that scares me. I don't want to end up like that.
•The thought of having children terrifies me.
•I want to be a better blogger and vlogger.
•Why am I always asking for your acceptance?
•Why do I need you to like me?
•Why can't I love myself?

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Pam said...

I relate to you on so many levels. You are not alone on many of them. If you ever want to talk, just let me know.

Linda said...

small bites.
take small bites out of your goals.

you want to love yourself, every day how about finding one reason, one quality you like.
start a one line journal and document it.

if you need help (here are a few ideas just from watching your vlogs lately)
1. i belly dance
2. i have a kind soul
3. i have pretty hair.
4. i have cool glasses.
5. i'm a good commenter.
6. i'm a hardworker.

etc :) small bites. one thing one day.

Heather said...

@Pam- we need to get together SOON!!
@Linda- you are wonderful! Thank you so much for being such an inspiration <3