I'll give it another go

Taking a cue from suki, I think I'll give the daily self photo thing a try....AGAIN lol. I said that the beginning of the year, I was going to start a picture-a-day for a year on DailyBooth. It was going well for a day or two lol. I now have this neat photo app for my phone that I read about on Photojojo (the most awesomest photo website EVER!) I've been there almost every day since I've dicovered it. Such a great site. Y'all should check it out.

I'm trying to learn more about photography. My mom has been into photography for years. I even got her on the waiting list for a beginning photo class. It was suppose to be a birthday present but the class is very popular and fills up last.

Cute camera

I would love to try out this cute camera. If only they would send me one to review lol. In my dreams, right?

I also like the photojojo website. It's clean and easy to navigate.

Fallen Friday

I spent a lot of money yesterday. I bought a strapless bra at Dillards and had the lady meausure me again. I'm a 36 DDD or 38 DD. I just stood there looking at myself. I couldn't believe it. My friend Melissa told me about a website I can buy bras for nit so much money. That makes me happy. Yeah, the bigger you get, the more expensive bras are (as far as I've experienced.) I also went to makeup heaven, a.k.a Sephora, and spent a lot of money. I had to throw out all my old makeup because I hadn't used it well over a year, maybe even two. I bought BareMinerals, a Sephora eye shadow palette, Nars Orgasm multiple, tarte marcara and eyeliner. I know it's a lot of money but that doesn't happen very often.

My left ear has been bothering me. It feels like it's underwater or something. I hope I'm not getting sick. I'm so tired of beig sick.

So, I've cried three times since I've been at work. I feel so alone and isolated. I want to buy nice clothes and pretty dresses but have nowhere to go in them. I haven't been to knitting in months. I have bellydance class on Wednesday nights now. There are three ladies I don't know and two I do from the previous class. I felt really intmidated by the girl starting next to me. Blah. Tomorrow is the bridal shower and bachelorette party. We'll see how that goes. Hopefully, we will all have fun. I'm bringing my camera so there will be pics posted after.

Hope you all have a lovely Friday and great weekend.

For you and me and all the girls

The lovely Jeney over at Just a Lost Soul Swimmin' in a Fish Bowl is hosting a giveaway. Go read and enter.

I've had a problem with food, thought the opposite of the book. I love to eat. I'm from the South. It's what we do. We eat all the time for everything. We have festivals about food. I eat when I'm bored, lonely, anger and for no reason at all. I've watched my mom struggle when her weight my whole life. She has gastic bypass sugery last year and is doing fine with it. Last weekend, I tried on my new dresses for her. She asked what size they where and I told her. She then looked me and said "Too bad I can't wear them." To have your mom be a size smaller than your is a shock. That's never happened to me before. I think it's great for her. I'm happy that she's happy. She didn't make me feel bad about it or anything. I just felt so bad after she said that because that's what we do to ourselves. I'm not going to stop eating. I am going to try and figure this out. I have started trying to eat healthy. I need to do some soul searching and get to the bottom of why I feel this way.

I hope that we can all figure this out. I hope that we can all learn to love our bodies and souls. To feel better from the inside out.

Eyes closed

I can't run from it, no matter how hard I try. It's always there. The feeling of it against my skin, blood running down. I'm tired of it always being there. It was my choice. I brought this into my life. I feel like a fake, a phoney. I'm boring, lonely, pathetic. Nothing feels right, nothing is going right. I want to be part of something that matters. I want to make a difference. I feel like I'm wasting my time here.