Listen to your heart

The alchemist speaking to the boy about why he should listen to his heart: "Because you will never again to able to keep it quiet. Even if you pretend not to have heard what it tells you, it will always be there inside you, repeating to you what you're thinking about life and about the world."

My heart has been heavy lately. I'm not really sure what's going on, but I'm going to let it happen. I'm going to try to listen and understand. It's been really hard lately to listen and understand anything. My heart is more guarded and closer off, though I'm an open person. What is the state of your heart?

Location:N College Rd,Lafayette,United States

The "Currently" game

So, Tabitha is playing the "Currently" game. I thought I'd follow suit. Here are a few on my list right now.

 Current Book(s): The Alchemist, such a good book. I suggest everyone read it.


Current Playlist: Belly dance music haha, trying to kind music to dance to for Christmas

Current Shame-Inducing Guilty Pleasure: I don't really have one

Current Color: My default color is red, I wear it at work becasue I have to and my college colors where red and white. I would love to introduce other colors into my wardrobe.

Current Drink: Water and coffee. I can't wait to drink pumpkin pie lattes and peppermint mochas.

Current Food: Honestly, junk right now. It's sad. I really need to get back into my healthy eating.

Current Favorite Show: Projecy Runway

Current Wishlist: I wish I could get out of my head, I wish I could feel connected to others

Current Needs: I need to stop worrying so much....about everyting

Current Bane(s) of my Existence: Bills and student loans....they will never go away

Current Celebrity Crush: Not really crushing on anyone at the moment

Current Outfit: Red shirt and black pants (work outfit)

Current Excitement: Nothing really....that's so sad

Current Link:  Nothing here either....blah

Do things really change?

I took this picture yesterday in Church. It belonged to the teenage girl sitting in front of me. When I saw this, it instantly brought back memories of middle school and friends. I remember when I had my friends sign my bags and such. All I could think was that I hoped she found amazing, lifelong friends who love, care and are there for her.

It also made me think about where those people are now and what they are doing with their life. I was never part of the popular crows in school. I didn't really even have a group (although I wad in band and choir). I was more of a loner. The movie The Social Network comes out this week. I really want to watch it. I recently went through my friend list on Facebook and deleted people I'm not really friends with. My thing is, if you weren't my friend in high school, why do you want to be friends now? For some reason, I still had a hard time deleting people. I know I need to go through again and delete more people. Why do I feel the need to keep people in my life that mean nothing to me? Why do I feel like adding them to my Facebook will make me feel better/more popular?

Location:Oak Park Dr,Lafayette,United States

In my head right now

There's so much on my mind right now. First, my car. It's cost me $500 to fix. That's $500 I really don't have, and I can't ask my parents for help. Second, I'm tired of hearing how his mom pays for this and his mom pays for that. Example: "Oh, I can't buy you food, but my mom gave me money to buy me and my brother dinner" or "My mom has someone at my house fixing the floor". Don't get me wrong, I'm happy I spent the money on my car and got it fixed. It no longer leaks and smells like gas. The fuel pump mechanism was cracked inside and out. The mechanic said he had never seen anything like that before. Then he tells me I need to get my brakes fixed next. I just have the best luck with cars. There's no one I can turn to for help money wise. I picked up two extra shifts at work. Now I work a double Friday and Saturday. I know I need the money. I just really need a break. I want to go on vacation. Blah. I'm tired. Of everything.

Location:U.S. 167,Lafayette,United States

Grace in Little Things, Week 2

1. I have my car back
2. My car doesn't leak gas or smell like it anymore either
3. I'm grateful for Elaine and Cain for being my rides this week
4. Belly dancing <3

Location:Oak Park Dr,Lafayette,United States

Vlogging is back

So, here is my first vlog since VEDA: Questions and Answer vlog

Vloggers back in action.....

....Wednesday, Wednesday, Wednesday hahaha.

Yes, we are bringing vlogging back, but instead of every day, we will be vlogging once a week.

So, in order for this vlog to happen, I need you to ask me questions. Anything is game. Yeah, you read that right, anything is game. So, post a comment here with your questions. You have until 5 p.m. on Tuesday to get your questions in. Can't wait to see what you ask!

Grace in Little Things, Week 1

Through VEDA, I have met so many amazing people. One of them being Nora. After reading her post on Grace in Little Things, I have decided I need to give it a try. I've had a rough week so this will do me some good.

1. I'm grateful that the painters saw my gas leak in my car. My car has been smelling like gas for well over a year now. I never knew where it came from, never saw a leak. Well, it turns out that my car leaks when I'm driving. It stops when the car is off. That being said....

2. I'm grateful my car has NOT exploded.

3. I'm grateful I have family and friends I can depend on, even though I hate asking for help.

4. I'm grateful for Thursday TV night.

5. I'm grateful for the semi-Fall weather we had for one day this week. Come on Fall!

What are you grateful for this week?

Location:U.S. 167,Lafayette,United States

Kaleidoscope Heart

If you haven't bought this album already, DO IT NOW!!! This is such an amazing album. I know critics and fans alike usually say that artists have the sophomore slump. You can't say that for this one. It's so heartfelt and real. I can feel the emotion behind every song. Give it a listen. I know you'll fall in love with it.

More about the tattoo

It happened on a Wednesday. At that time in my life, anything good or bad happened on a Wednesday. I think it was our thing. We use to laugh about that.

I remember facing the fence, seeing the road, cars passing by. I was crying, on the phone with my mom. The words were simple. My mom, not so much. "I like her". I came out to my mom, over the phone. Never give anyone huge life changing news over the phone. My mom said something I will never forget as long as I live. "If your dad does anything to hurt himself becasue of this, you are out of our lifes forever". She hung up.

Two or three days later, I got the tattoo. A simple butterfly, with a rainbow inside. It represents my independence from my parents, being able to fly. It also represents coming out to my parents. I fell in love. Hard. It sucks when you get your heart broken. We never dated. Just friends. Best friends.

Things are very different now. I often wonder what would have happened all those years ago. I guess we'll never know. It makes me sad.

Time with the tribe

Last night, we had student night for our dance studio. We have it at a local retaurant. So much fun. It was also several ladies in the studios birthdays. Such a great time to celebrate. I really needed last night. I really need more of that. Here are a few pictures:

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Shimmy Sisters!!!

Joy radiated from her <3

So, that was my night last night. Such a great night! These last few weeks have been busy and crazy. I think I finally have time to think about things and what not. I guess only time will tell what happens.