Book Whore

Hi, I'm a book whore.

Really. I am.

Coffee. Book. Knitting. They are my weaknesses. Don't ever ask me to give them up.

Today, I bought 5 books, even though I have books I haven't read yet. I don't don't know why I do it. Maybe I love books to much.

What are your weaknesses?

I needed to start two weeks ago

No, not what you're thinking at all.

I've decided to undertake a fairly large project.

I am making Monica and Lucas's wedding present. I have decided to knit them an afghan. A friend help me pick the pattern. It's going to be so pretty. I'm modify the pattern a little to make it more sturdy. Now, I'm just waiting on the yarn to come in. I also need to buy needles. I've using Lions Brand Wool-Ease Thick and Quick yarn in sky blue and a size 13/36" needle. I can't wait to get started. The shower is scheduled for April 10 so this will be my focus for the month or so. If it comes out great, I might just make one for myself lol. I'll keep y'all updated on my progress.

So much for today

It occured to me a few weeks ago that I would be working Mardi Gras.....all day and night.

Yeah, fun, I know.

I guess people have nothing better to do than come to the movies today. Most businesses are closed. I wish I could say that I went to parades this year and partied with the rest of the Cajun population. Sadly, I did not. That's okay though. I didn't have to fight the streets for a parking spot or the dunkin' crowds for a good spot and maybe some beads. Maybe next year.

Now, let's talk about tomorrow. If you are Catholic, like I am, so begins the season on Lent. Yes, let's give up something we otherwise would not live without for 40 days in hopes it will makes us better people and bring us closer to God. That's Cathoics for ya!

I'm giving up ice cream and really going to start going to church. If you know me and ice cream, this may be hard for me. I could eat ice cream all the time. I've ate it for breakfast once. Yeah, so.....let's see what you eat when there's nothing else. Don't judge me! As far as the church things goes, I've wanted to go back to church for a while now. I don't really know what's been stopping me (okay, so maybe I do....sleeping and laziness have beaten me thus far).

What are you giving up?

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That's the card that Hayley sent me. I love getting snail mail. Do you?

It just keeps coming

Man, I had this great post set up for today until something else came up.

I guess I'll get to what I wanted to talk about tomorrow.

Now, on to my story about what happened tonight at the mall...yeah, you heard me...the mall.

Victoria Secret, to be exact.

M came into town this weekend, and we all had a great time hanging out on Saturday. During the day, we went to the mall and shopped. I even bought stuff!! That never happens. I really needed bras so I bought two from Victria Secret. I tried them on at the store and they seemed to fit. I wore one to work last night. Bad idea. It ended up being too small. I kept having to fix it all night. So annoying!!

After work today, I figured I was going to return them and get a bigger size. I went back to Victoria Secret and asked to be fitted. The sales associate called someone else to help me because she was busy doing something else. I told the lady that did help me that I needed to be fitted. She then asked what size I thought I wore. I told her that the bra I had on was a 36DD. She looked at me and said they didn't carry any larger than that size in the store. She didn't offer any more help than that, not even the fitting I asked for. She didn't really seem to even want to help me. I got my refund and left the store. I went back to my car, after getting food, and cried. Just what I needed. So, I have no new bras, which I deperatly need, and still have no idea what size I am. I tried using the tape measurer but that didn't seem to come out right; there's no way I'm a B and my bust measured 41"...yeah, great.

Any advice on what to do?? I really need a new bra, like now!

Back to me

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. The Saints winning the Super Bowl just means great things are going to happen. One being I'm going to stick with this haha. Yeah, great things are going to happen.

On another note......

The weather down here is just down right ridiculous. Really???? It has to be cold, wet and rainy with a chance of sleet/snow??? Thanks, Mother Nature. That's just wrong to do to people in the south. I wish I were home right now. Instead, I'm at work. I like that I can post from anywhere, though.

For those of you who read this regularly (yay for you!!), I slept at my apartment last night!! I know that sounds silly to you, but it's sort of a big deal for me. When I moved into my apartment, I had full intentions of living there by myself, being me, doing my own thing. Well, that didn't work out like I had hoped. I started spending more and more time at the boyfriends house. It was just like I lived there. Wait, don't you have your own apartment, with your own bills and things, you ask??? Yeah, I do. I think I've gotten through to myself that I need to live at my place, that I don't need to be with him 24/7. I need to get back to me.

New

I would like a new look for my blog. Something clean, cheerful, cute, simple, fresh. I also need help making to flow better. It seems to cluttered to me.

Any advice?

Maybe I need one

I like watching Intervention on A&E. It just gets me how these people can mess their lives up so badly and their families help them. The episodes I've seen on television are usually about drug and/or alcohol. I've never seen one about any other addiction. I just happend to be scrolling through the episodes online when I came across one about shopping. This lady had over $100,000 in credit card debt and she also stole her mother's identity. How crazy is that? But, that's not what I want to write about tonight.

Last night, Cain and I made plans to go to Fat Pat's Bar and Grill for their $3 single hot dogs on Sunday. I was excited because we hadn't been there in a while. I was really hungry because I hadn't eaten since last night and by the time we got there it was around 2:30 (traffic was horrible). My stomach was A LOT bigger than my eyes. I wish they would communicate more often. I got two hot dogs and an order of sweet potato fries. WRONG WRONG WRONG. BAD DECISION. I felt horrible leaving the bar and I still feel a little full. But, I still want to eat. I'm not hungry, not even close. I just feel like eating. I'll find stuff to eat all the time, be it healthy or not, usually not. Ice cream is my all time favorite. I think I get that from my dad. He would eat ice cream all the time. We would have ice cream in the house at all times growing up. Then, for Lent one year, he gave it up and hardly eats it now, if at all. I think I need a food intervention or something. I just want to eat all the time. It really shows, too. I've seen changes in me physically and emotionally. I've never been as big as I am. People says I'm not fat (this lady sure thinks so) and that my body is proportioned correctly. I really appreciate when people say that but I can't help but feel like crap. I look at myself and wonder how I let myself get like this?

I've also wanted to do several creative things lately. I want to paint. I even knida know what I want to paint. I just need to get my big butt up and go get the supplies. Any ideas? I start belly dance class again tomorrow night (WOOHOO!). I was feeling super excited about it then I started feeling fat. I start my cable hat kitting class on Thursday. I'm getting my yarn and needles on Wednesday and am super excited about that. The hats will be pink for the Race for the Cure coming up on March 20th. Go. Read. Donate.

Not as great as we thought

I'm reading the Feburary issue of Glamour and I came across a very interesting article. Now, before I talk about it, I do feel the need to let you know that I'm not my soap box or high horse or anything else you can think of. I, in fact, use to be one of these people. You know them. They have bronze skin, a great tan. You may even beat little jealous. I hope you're not. It's made out to be so great and wonderful, that you'll look and feel better. It's made popular on television. Fake and bake. Not so great. When I was in undergrad, I use to be one of them. It didn't start off so bad, maybe a few times a month. Then that didn't seem to do it anymore. I would go for longer perids of time in the bed. I would go everyday. It got so bad that my friends would know when I went tannig because they could smell the burnt skin. Yeah, sexy. I know. I knew what I was doing. I knew what it was doing to my skin. Still, it didn't matter. Then one day, I stopped. I, along with my checking account, couldn't take it anymore. It started being something I felt I had to do everyday. If I didn't go, I felt I let myself down somehow. How messed up is that? Really? I'd rather be not tan and health then with one and sick. When are these peope going to lean? What are your thoughts on the matter?

Case of the blahs....

I feel more accomplished today than I have in a while.

I bought two pair of black pants that actually fit (YAY!!!!), registered for my cable hat class at the Yarn Nook, as well as signed up with Kim for a shirt for the upcoming breast cancer walk.

All was well until I realized I only had 15 minutes to get to my bar card class (I'm the one that is always 15 moniytes early for everything....if I'm not going with Cain lol). So, I speed across town with 2 minutes to spare! Turns out the instructor locked the door. Dude, we have two minutes...let us in. So he did. I eneded up sitting by some really cool guy named Ryan. He's now my friend on Twitter. It's his birthday today!

I am now legally allowed to sell alcochol in the state of Louisiana another 4 years and in city of Lafayette for another 2....ya know, if I'm still here (see yesterdays post if you're confused). Woohoo!!! Gotta love those laws, baby!

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Putting it all out there

I may want to commit Internet suicide after this, but it's something I feel I have to do.

One of my favorite bloggers,Muppet Soul, came back to blogging this week. I have missed her so freaking much. She is a great writter. She makes me laugh. I want to write like her. This leads to me someone else.

Another of my favorite bloggers, LiLu, wrote a great post on her blog about finding your own voice. I need to do that. I also need to go like Muppet and write everyday!!! EVERYDAY!!!

Here comes the Internet suicide part:

I had to renew my bar card (city and state) by the end of the month. So, yesterday morning, my friend and I decide to go before work to get it out the way. We pay and get to the office fairly quickly, no problem. I just happen to get the lady processor this morning. She's going over all of my information and we're chatting like old friends. Man, could I be more wrong. Three things happen that ruin my day.
First, she tells me I can take the class this Thursday and won't have to worry about it for another four years, that hopefully I won't have to ever take it again. Thank you so freaking much, lady I've known for all of 5 minutes, to point out that I'm 26 and still work at the same damn place after four years. I let that go.
Second, she comments on my weight. She say's "Wait, you were 162 (that's A LIE....my state card says 152. Wanna see???) the last time you came in here." My current weight is 180 (INTERNET SUICIDE). I wanted to jump across the desk and beat her. I played that one off as having eating out a lot with my boyfriend (which is more than true....I'll save that for other time)
Third, I woke up about 39 minutes before I was suppose to meet my friend this AM. That doesn't leave much time to look fabulously picture ready. I thought I didn't look that bad; I managed to run my fingers through my hair and pinch my cheeks. When it comes time for the picture part, I thought she was going to ask me to get in front of the camera as cheese it up. Boy, was I dead wrong. Instead, she asks if I want to just reprint my picture because I don't look that much different than I did in the last one. I wanted to crawl in a hole and die. Thank you lady, for ruining what very little self esteem I had. Thank you.

This just keeps getting better.

Monday, I had to shopping for black pants (we switching to them for work). I tried dying my kahki pants black and it didn't work :-( I HATE shopping. I'm short, fat and have big hips and boobs. Yeah, that makes for a great shopping experience. Let me tell you. Anyway, back to the black pants. We ended up going to Goodwil because we are broke (in other words, we make nothing at our job, but hey, we're lucky to have one, right?) We search through all the black pants and each find a pair that fit and I get two "boobie shirts", as my friend calls them. I put them on today for work and have been uncomfortable all day. They fit great in the hip and thigh area (my problem area). Problem is they about two inches from my boobs and ride up a little in the crotch. Great.

My stomach hurt all morning. It sucked. After I used the bathroom, though, I felt better. I need to start drinking more water. My mom always told me: drink clear, pee clear. It's always worked for me. Has your mom ever told you stuff like that?

What a way to start

I'm tired and I can't seem to fall asleep. My first post of the new year....three weeks late. I do have goode news...I finally finished my first ever knitting project. Ya know, I one I started last SEPTEMBER. It wasn't hard or time consuming. My dogs set me back a few times, though. Never, ever eave your knitting where animals can get to it. I'm going purchase more needles and yarn tomorrow. I want to start on a scarf as well as a hat. I'm super excited about these two projects because I'll be doing them on my own.

I've been feeling kinda down lately. I really miss my friends. I miss "me" time.

Isn't this wonderful??

I don't know what's going on, but I'm not feeling great. All I want to do it cry. I feel alone. I want the holidays to be over. My apartment isn't lived in and it makes me cry.

I'm going to my parents tomorrow to type up recipes for our Christmas present. I have to go early and be back at my apartment by 2 because the UPS guy is suppose to drop off Cain's Christmas present (I got him a WoW beer stein, along with Brutal Legend for XBox360).

It's 5 days until Christmas and I feel like crap.

In your eyes

What do you do when you look in the mirror and don't like what you see? This has been on my mind a lot lately. I see things about myself that I don't like. I know I need to change them and I really want to. It just feels like there is somethig stopping me. I keep thinking about the me I am now and how people react to me. It's not good. I get picked on a lot because of how I treat people. It makes me feel horrible. Do people really see me that way? Am I really that girl? I feel like if I try to change, be better, people will compare me to how I use to be, that they won't believe me.

I'm not in the holiday spirit. I want these two weeks (winter break for schools) to go by very fast.

I'm treating myself to some hair products and a book (Knitting for Dummies) on Monday. My Christmas gift to myself. Hopefully it will help me feel a little better.

I need to get out of this funk. I hate this so much.

Back so soon

I know I just posted a few minutes ago, but oh well.

As the year comes to a close and the new year is within reach, I can't help but think all I things I want to do in the new year. I always make a resolution that I NEVER keep. I actually want to keep one, if not all of them, this year. I guess I just had to put that out there because I've heard it helps to have support. So, support, I'm letting you know now, I WILL NEED IT LOL.

I will post my resolutions as the time gets closer.

A lot on my mind

About a week about, my friend said she wanted to start a Bible study group. It sounded interesting, at least to just see what it's like. Tonight, we had our first meeting. There were just three of us there because the three other ladies had plans. Tonight, we just talked about how we wanted things to go. We talked about reading a few chapters a week then going over them the next week; we also talked about having topics to talk about. I learned about a book entitled The Message. From what I understand, it helps you understand the Bible if you are having trouble with the language. I'm glad I decided to come. I guess we are searching and looking for something deeper to believe in, to ground ourselves in. I've always wanted to read and truly understand the Bible.

I was baptized Roman Catholic. Growing up, we did not attend church. I did not have my first communion until I was 14. While there are things I do not agree with in the Catholic church, I like the structure it gives me. A few years ago, I read The Secret. A must read, if you haven't already. It's about sending good vibes out in the Universe and letting it come back to you, living in the now, being happy with yourself today and so forth. I have read a few more books like that. I have become interested in Buddhism. I've wanted to learn more about it. I like the thought of living in the here and now, of being present. I don't think I am very present in my life at the moment. I'm all over the place.

I'm at a crossroads with this. I like the structure of the Catholic church, and I like going to church (though I haven't been in a VERY long time). I'm not a conservative. I don't agree with all the teachings of the Catholic church. I just don't know where to go with this. I don't know where I identify religiously.

Anyone have any advice?

Get up and move your hips

Yes, I said it: Move. Your. Hips.

That is what I, and other lovely ladies, are doing at Oasis Belly Dance Studio here in Lafayette, LA. Check out the website at www.oasisbellydance.com. It's so much fun.

I decided to start belly dancing because a few of my friends do it and it seemed like fun. I signed up for Beginner 1 with Dayna on Monday nights. After my first class, all I wanted to do was cry. Why, you ask? Didn't you just say it was fun? Yes, I did. I soon learned that it's not just about moving your hips and arms. It's about getting in touch with yourself, about loving your body. Now, I'm not completely in love with myself, but I'm slowly learning to be. We completed our last class last Monday. I signed up to take Beginner 2 next semester, starting Feb. 1st. I cannot tell you how much I'm looking forward to class starting.

In our last two classes, we learned a dance. We learned the dance with no veil but Dayna sent us a video of the dance with a veil. I want to learn it with the veil. Next Tuesday, they are having student night at Zeus Cafe. Students in the advanced levels have to perform as part of their class. I'm going with a group of friends, and hopefully my sister, to eat great food, watch great dancing and maybe even get up there myself haha. We'll see about that one.

If you don't live around the Lafayette area, check into belly dancing whererver you may be. It is a lot of fun.

To knit or not to knit.....

....that is the question

My anwser: knit on!!

I was introduced to knitting by a client at the vet clinic I use to work at. I am so happy I was. Lafayette has a great knitting shop, Yarn Nook. They are a wonderful bunch of laides that I am very happy getting to know. Stop by the website and read more about them.

If you don't live around here, stop by your local knit shop and see what they have to offer.

It is such a great stress relief. I hope you find the same joy in it that I do.

Happy knitting!!!

Secret

I have a secret I've been carrying around for a very long time. It makes me feel stupid to even think about it. I'm scared to succeed. I'm scared to be good at something. I'm scared that I'll fall flat on my face and look stupid.

I think that's held me back a lot in my life. Could be the reason I'm still at The Grand.

I'm sending out resumes Monday for 5 postions open in public relations in the Lafayette area. Hopefully something good happens.

I'm working as much as I can at The Grand. It really sucks. But, that's life. No one said it was easy or fair.